I deserve!! ✩✩✩

"I've made mistakes in my life,

                I've let people take advantage of me,

Still expected way less than I deserved!

                But I've learnt from bad choices,

& even though there are some things,

                I can never get back to and correct,

People who will never be sorry,

               For things they did...

I know better next time,

                & won't settle for anything less than...

What I deserve!!" 

One of those randoms posts...

Have you ever felt so sad that you can't move?  All you want to do is just roll up & cry? I don't know, life has been kinda sucky lately & I just feel so alone & upset & I hate it because I'm normally happy & bubbly.

I guess I've been just too sweet to people...even those who don't even deserve to be treated so! Friends who have been in my life for their own selfish gains...temporary part of your life and then again you are on your own!

I soon get attatched to people who even care a little for me...innocently unaware of the negative part of them!

I just can't say "no" to people thinking they might get it rude...but what when they do it just casually...it hurts doesn't it? I realised...I should learn saying "no" to people when I don't wish to agree...compromising with your own decisions won't get us anywhere..

When am alone all by myself...my mind just wouldnt stop racing...so many things on my mind!! Feels like lemme just pause and get everything sorted!! Wish it was just that easy...;)

But dont wanna run away from things now...I just know that i dont need this!! Just want things to get better...✩✩✩

Wanted to kinda get all these feelings out...;) feels great!! <3

*Life is like a rollercoaster*

"Life can be like a roller coaster...

And just when you think you've had enough,

and your ready to get off the ride and take the calm, easy merry-go round...

You change your mind, throw you hands in the air

and ride the roller coaster all over again.

That's exhilaration...that's living a bit on the edge...that's being ALIVE."

~Stacy Charter

 Just read it this mornin'...loved it!! so posted it...<3

For all of them in my life...:)

Do you believe that all the people in your life are there for a reason? And so is the case with the ones that aren't there are also there for a reason? I surely do...

I've been thinking a lot of the people in my life...the ones that are still there, some I've grown closer to, some I've kept at arm's length ( while some are deleted!! ) 

Some have amazed me by what they can do with their lives, taught me lessons on how to follow your heart and be brave...;)

Some have taught me the same lessons with examples of what not to do...:P

Just the way some people always hold a special place in your life...while some hardly matter!!

You can choose to get mad, feel hurt, betrayed, bitter. It wouldn't even be unjustified. No one would say "You're expecting too much."

Or you can choose to NOT get mad. NOT feel betrayed. Hold on because of what there used to be. Even if its not there anymore. Because underneath it all, is the same person that there used to be.
Sometimes, it's letting go that's easier and holding on NO MATTER WHAT that becomes nearly impossible.
Sometimes...

Personally speaking, I'd hold on.

...Atleast until I was absolutely sure that it's time to let go!!

Am happy with all the people in my life today...love you all...✩✩✩