I deserve!! ✩✩✩

"I've made mistakes in my life,

                I've let people take advantage of me,

Still expected way less than I deserved!

                But I've learnt from bad choices,

& even though there are some things,

                I can never get back to and correct,

People who will never be sorry,

               For things they did...

I know better next time,

                & won't settle for anything less than...

What I deserve!!" 

One of those randoms posts...

Have you ever felt so sad that you can't move?  All you want to do is just roll up & cry? I don't know, life has been kinda sucky lately & I just feel so alone & upset & I hate it because I'm normally happy & bubbly.

I guess I've been just too sweet to people...even those who don't even deserve to be treated so! Friends who have been in my life for their own selfish gains...temporary part of your life and then again you are on your own!

I soon get attatched to people who even care a little for me...innocently unaware of the negative part of them!

I just can't say "no" to people thinking they might get it rude...but what when they do it just casually...it hurts doesn't it? I realised...I should learn saying "no" to people when I don't wish to agree...compromising with your own decisions won't get us anywhere..

When am alone all by myself...my mind just wouldnt stop racing...so many things on my mind!! Feels like lemme just pause and get everything sorted!! Wish it was just that easy...;)

But dont wanna run away from things now...I just know that i dont need this!! Just want things to get better...✩✩✩

Wanted to kinda get all these feelings out...;) feels great!! <3

*Life is like a rollercoaster*

"Life can be like a roller coaster...

And just when you think you've had enough,

and your ready to get off the ride and take the calm, easy merry-go round...

You change your mind, throw you hands in the air

and ride the roller coaster all over again.

That's exhilaration...that's living a bit on the edge...that's being ALIVE."

~Stacy Charter

 Just read it this mornin'...loved it!! so posted it...<3

For all of them in my life...:)

Do you believe that all the people in your life are there for a reason? And so is the case with the ones that aren't there are also there for a reason? I surely do...

I've been thinking a lot of the people in my life...the ones that are still there, some I've grown closer to, some I've kept at arm's length ( while some are deleted!! ) 

Some have amazed me by what they can do with their lives, taught me lessons on how to follow your heart and be brave...;)

Some have taught me the same lessons with examples of what not to do...:P

Just the way some people always hold a special place in your life...while some hardly matter!!

You can choose to get mad, feel hurt, betrayed, bitter. It wouldn't even be unjustified. No one would say "You're expecting too much."

Or you can choose to NOT get mad. NOT feel betrayed. Hold on because of what there used to be. Even if its not there anymore. Because underneath it all, is the same person that there used to be.
Sometimes, it's letting go that's easier and holding on NO MATTER WHAT that becomes nearly impossible.
Sometimes...

Personally speaking, I'd hold on.

...Atleast until I was absolutely sure that it's time to let go!!

Am happy with all the people in my life today...love you all...✩✩✩

Momma

Have you felt like that? So tensed about a situation that you feel you will burst into a million pieces? I was going through similar situation this morning as my results were gonna be out anytime this week. And that was almost eating me from inside.

I recently told my mom about the ecards and how we can just mail it to someone for any occasion or confession...anything..

While I was sleeping this afternoon she sat down to search ecards website and sent me an ecard just to convey her best wishes. She also wrote a message "Neha I am always with you to support you...we do understand your feelings...don't worry...everything will be fine" I felt as if everything was sorted...I hugged my mom and told her that I was fine. But inside I felt like crying my heart out. That was so thoughtful of her to do such a sweet thing...just so that it brings a smile on my face!!

I felt so bad that it usually happens that we are only busy with our own problems...we just want people to make us feel good when we are feeling low...without  even thinking what she feels when she sees her child tensed or when she feels low...

Sometimes when am just with myself...I promise to myself that I will always take care of my mom throughout my life...will go that extra mile for her...make her feel special and loved!!

My mom has been the best person in my life...Every Valentines Day since my teenage, I have been giving her a red rose because I love her (And the rose brings the sweetest smile on her face)

I Love You Momma!! :)

Mumbai snaps

Had been to many lovely beaches in Mumbai recently...sitting near the beaches...feeling of the cold sand on your feet just cannot be described in words!! The nature's bliss and the beauty there which can be seen cannot be captured that beautifully...I tried to get some snaps though for those cherished memories..:)

                

                                              My footprints...;)



 

       

Femina

Femina has been my all time favourite magazine since a couple of years now...its wonderful to read in leisurely time by just checking out some featured articles...

It helps you with all your queries regarding styling and clothes that may suit you perfectly (which is my favourite column) Its a space where women can truly speak their minds out...be it their views regarding current issues or pouring out their life into words...its always interesting to be reading some reality stuff!!

Though its always amazing to see that even men love reading them!! lol..:D

"Here's a space for every women"