India ki baarish!!

The summers have been terrible this year! :/

And thankfully the monsoons are here now… It’s been raining all this week! :D

My mom was making nice garam pyaaz ke pakode for me this afternoon.

 I was missing the times when I used to sit in the balcony with my two sisters enjoying the rains, talking about random things and having garam pakodas.

I messaged one of my sister’s who is in London now since a year.

Me: It’s raining yaha pe…finally the monsoons are here! Just at the right time…helping me to have lazier vacations!! Hehe..:D

Richa: Wow Nehu! I miss Indian rains!! Yaha pe toh even rains look so modern!! :/

Me: It’s not the rains dear…it’s the place, surrounding.

Richa: Haan! Yaha pe who mitti ki khusboo nahi…L

So true!

The smell of wet earth just after the rains is so mesmerizing! Nothing like it! J

Confusions!!

I am going to be a graduate soon!! Seems like I have to make a choice again...rather chalk out a future plan for myself...there are a whole lot of options popping up in my tiny little brain...every week I come up with a different plan. And just as I fix to certain plan I meet a person from some other field…we get into talks, discussing available options for me and that starts adding up new options, which ends up adding to the confusion too!

*Sigh*

The engineering days are closing faster and I have yet to have the clear understanding of what am I going to do next...I made a decision after my twelfth standard and escaped the tough decision making process for the next 4 years!! (Though this decision also was taken after a lot of confusion with the options available even then!)

But now enough of irresponsible and careless behavior…time for serious decision making…there it is, staring at my face, this whole decision making thing and driving me crazy for the past few days. How am I supposed to do decide whether I should go for a decent paying job in a field I think I am interested in (which keeps changing every week as I said) or pick up higher studies like some my friends…which also my parents will be happy with…

I wish to do something which would be creative and also which gives me immense pleasure and satisfaction. Actually I have this fancy world I live in...I fancy working at an office…wearing nice formal clothes!

My heart and mind are playing tricks with me…creating an illusion for me!! I don't know how it came into my writing but I got to put up everything in this one...because I do get millions of options which I hardly put together to analyze it later.
So I was talking about this confusion in my head…

Oops I almost forgot "plans aren’t meant for a super confused person like me" So I guess I will just take life as it comes and get the whole lot of experiences out of it.
Wish me luck guys!! J

Am back! But got nothing to say for now I guess..:|

I was just going through my fellow blogger’s post when I happened to notice my total page views…

I’ve been really boring on all the social networking websites! You can say I was on hibernation!! lol ;)

My last post was 4 months back. This blog has become so old & rusty for anyone to even remember it now…but now I am back!!

I really don't know why I stopped blogging ‘coz back in my mind I must have thought of a 100 posts (me being a person who just can’t stop analyzing things and then thinking over them again and again) old habits die hard you see… :/

And now when I finally thought of writing…NOTHING!! Absolutely nothing!!

I’ve been staring at my laptop screen since last 30minutes thinking about what to write…then occasionally switching to YouTube and then back here…hmmm…

Makes no sense, does it? Forget it…

Thanks to all the people who have been waiting for a new post!!

I’ll be back soon with a post in a couple of days…stay tuned!! J 

Pillow talks!!

    

I love to talk to myself just before going to bed…go through the whole day in my head.

I am just staring at this blank screen trying to choose the right amount of words…

Was just wondering, when we were just kids…it was lot easier…things get a lot more complicated as we grow old and we have a whole new level of thinking and new emotions to deal with.

My sister commented on one of my previous posts…the comment goes like “Life is easy Neha...Its only as complicated as you let it be!!”

Sometimes planning just for a single day is easy…so I’ve decided to do that rather than holding onto something everyday…

Questionaire with some music!!

Okay finally some fun post…no philosophy no brains no heart absolutely nothing!! Lol..I saw this game in a blog of a friend of mine...so this is how it is played...firstly there are a bunch of questions and then you just keep your ipod on shuffle and change the tracks with the questions and note the name down for each one...and no cheating here...that makes it funnier and interesting too!! :D so lets begin..

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY?” YOU SAY?

Imagine. (Lol, talk about thinking hatke!)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

With Or Without you (That is one of my favourite songs, but makes absolutely 

NO sense in this context!)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY?

Sham tanha. (Huuhhh?! =P)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Unchained Melody. (That sounds profound. Me likey! ;)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?

Something stupid. (Whaaatttt!?!)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

Sajna aa bhi jaa. (Oh please, I'm not that desperate!)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Sweet Child Of Mine. (Awww!! :) Thank you, thank you very much!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

Back to December. (??!!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

How to love. (I'm soooo laughing out louuud now!!)

WHAT IS 2+2?

Somebody that i used to know. (Lol, my Math teachers have been proved right man! I do know absolutely nothing!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Under The Bridge. (?!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Shut up N drive. (Hahahaha!!)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

My sacrifice.(hmmn...not really! :/)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

City of blinding lights. (What am I supposed to translate that to?!)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Zombie.(lmao =)) this is turning out to be crazy! )

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Pareshan. (Lmao. I'm THAT badd?)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Stairway to heaven. (Hahaaahahahhahaha =D)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

We are young. (yeaa rite!! :/ )

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Viva la vida. (Yeaah, I wish i knew wat that means!! )

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Come Undone. (Um, okay? If you say so, I guess...)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

I believe in miracles. (Ummm... random, but makes sense in a weird sorta way.)

WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?

Paradise. (makes no sense again?!)

Only about stars!! :)

I have been trying really hard to remember what we talked about several minutes ago. I think the conversation somehow drifted to looking at the three stars in the sky. And I remember bits and pieces of conversations discussing if one of the stars was an airplane and was moving… which we star-gazed. That was really an interesting part of conversation…we three were star gazing…

The air is so chilly now…it was amazing evening!!! Was this nightout ever part of a plan? Never… But more than half of the interesting chapters of my life have been unplanned hence I give in.

 And then we could see airplanes take off…that was one amazing view!! I don’t know about them, but the sound of that was making my senses numb. And this is enough for me to realize this night will be special. We are here finally, lying under the gorgeous sky and abundant stars.

I am all quiet. Absolutely nothing on my mind…I just want to live quietly in this beautiful moment. I don’t want to give away how ecstatic I feel in this moment. We are listening to songs on my phone…"Stairway to heaven"...just the song for that moment!! :)

Subconsciously I do calculations about my life every day, but right now I have left it all past me; because I have never lived another moment as beautiful as this one. Here in this moment, I want to breathe, I want to breathe deep and long, I want to close my eyes and open them to see the splendor of this night and what it holds for me and I want to repeat these steps over and over again!! 

I am still awake, looking at the stars, wondering what all of it was, but slumber welcomes me in one of these moments.

I am in love…not with anyone but with that night, the stars, the buzz, the conversation all about stars, the songs  and everything else...

Now I could believe love does exist…not only between people but everywhere…not in just kissing or romance but also in some special moments just with yourself!! 

Randoms

Sometimes you get into an argument with a closed one and winning it is not your only motive in fact you might end up hurting yourself even more…

This has happened to me a lot of times…sometimes you just want the person you are arguing with to understand you, not just win the argument!
Sometimes when am alone and feeling low…and then random things start running on my mind I start thinking of every little thing happening or that happened in my life…then very small things which I thought never even mattered to me also hurt real bad!!
But sometimes I love doing that…sitting in my room alone besides the window…sipping a cup of strong hot coffee…have some quality time just to myself…when am  triggered off with some conflict and feel heavy hearted and low…but am really not very sure what the reason is… that makes it difficult to resolve it. So I decided to write down randomly whatever I feel like…