Randoms

Sometimes you get into an argument with a closed one and winning it is not your only motive in fact you might end up hurting yourself even more…

This has happened to me a lot of times…sometimes you just want the person you are arguing with to understand you, not just win the argument!
Sometimes when am alone and feeling low…and then random things start running on my mind I start thinking of every little thing happening or that happened in my life…then very small things which I thought never even mattered to me also hurt real bad!!
But sometimes I love doing that…sitting in my room alone besides the window…sipping a cup of strong hot coffee…have some quality time just to myself…when am  triggered off with some conflict and feel heavy hearted and low…but am really not very sure what the reason is… that makes it difficult to resolve it. So I decided to write down randomly whatever I feel like…

Insight Into Life & Love

"In life, we all have an unspeakable secret, an irreversible regret, an unreachable dream & an unforgettable love"

I believe living in present rather than still repenting over some things of past...If you take care of your present, your future will be taken care of..;)

Am always waiting to grab an opportunity to be happy...
                 

" Learn from yesterday, live for today &   hope for tomorrow!! " 

                        We go through different phases in life. We are infants, toddlers, children, adolescents, youth & then grow old...all these changes in just one life time...all are extremely different!! Every day we learn something new...new surprises...some lessons to be learnt...some hearts broken...some struck by a cupid...<3

But that’s alright...when few hearts will be broken...new will get along! ;)

Pata toh chal hi gaya hoga ki am in a really good mood today...yeahh!! :D

And no reason known as yet...feels good...writing after a really long time!! 

I deserve!! ✩✩✩

"I've made mistakes in my life,

                I've let people take advantage of me,

Still expected way less than I deserved!

                But I've learnt from bad choices,

& even though there are some things,

                I can never get back to and correct,

People who will never be sorry,

               For things they did...

I know better next time,

                & won't settle for anything less than...

What I deserve!!" 

One of those randoms posts...

Have you ever felt so sad that you can't move?  All you want to do is just roll up & cry? I don't know, life has been kinda sucky lately & I just feel so alone & upset & I hate it because I'm normally happy & bubbly.

I guess I've been just too sweet to people...even those who don't even deserve to be treated so! Friends who have been in my life for their own selfish gains...temporary part of your life and then again you are on your own!

I soon get attatched to people who even care a little for me...innocently unaware of the negative part of them!

I just can't say "no" to people thinking they might get it rude...but what when they do it just casually...it hurts doesn't it? I realised...I should learn saying "no" to people when I don't wish to agree...compromising with your own decisions won't get us anywhere..

When am alone all by myself...my mind just wouldnt stop racing...so many things on my mind!! Feels like lemme just pause and get everything sorted!! Wish it was just that easy...;)

But dont wanna run away from things now...I just know that i dont need this!! Just want things to get better...✩✩✩

Wanted to kinda get all these feelings out...;) feels great!! <3

*Life is like a rollercoaster*

"Life can be like a roller coaster...

And just when you think you've had enough,

and your ready to get off the ride and take the calm, easy merry-go round...

You change your mind, throw you hands in the air

and ride the roller coaster all over again.

That's exhilaration...that's living a bit on the edge...that's being ALIVE."

~Stacy Charter

 Just read it this mornin'...loved it!! so posted it...<3

For all of them in my life...:)

Do you believe that all the people in your life are there for a reason? And so is the case with the ones that aren't there are also there for a reason? I surely do...

I've been thinking a lot of the people in my life...the ones that are still there, some I've grown closer to, some I've kept at arm's length ( while some are deleted!! ) 

Some have amazed me by what they can do with their lives, taught me lessons on how to follow your heart and be brave...;)

Some have taught me the same lessons with examples of what not to do...:P

Just the way some people always hold a special place in your life...while some hardly matter!!

You can choose to get mad, feel hurt, betrayed, bitter. It wouldn't even be unjustified. No one would say "You're expecting too much."

Or you can choose to NOT get mad. NOT feel betrayed. Hold on because of what there used to be. Even if its not there anymore. Because underneath it all, is the same person that there used to be.
Sometimes, it's letting go that's easier and holding on NO MATTER WHAT that becomes nearly impossible.
Sometimes...

Personally speaking, I'd hold on.

...Atleast until I was absolutely sure that it's time to let go!!

Am happy with all the people in my life today...love you all...✩✩✩

Momma

Have you felt like that? So tensed about a situation that you feel you will burst into a million pieces? I was going through similar situation this morning as my results were gonna be out anytime this week. And that was almost eating me from inside.

I recently told my mom about the ecards and how we can just mail it to someone for any occasion or confession...anything..

While I was sleeping this afternoon she sat down to search ecards website and sent me an ecard just to convey her best wishes. She also wrote a message "Neha I am always with you to support you...we do understand your feelings...don't worry...everything will be fine" I felt as if everything was sorted...I hugged my mom and told her that I was fine. But inside I felt like crying my heart out. That was so thoughtful of her to do such a sweet thing...just so that it brings a smile on my face!!

I felt so bad that it usually happens that we are only busy with our own problems...we just want people to make us feel good when we are feeling low...without  even thinking what she feels when she sees her child tensed or when she feels low...

Sometimes when am just with myself...I promise to myself that I will always take care of my mom throughout my life...will go that extra mile for her...make her feel special and loved!!

My mom has been the best person in my life...Every Valentines Day since my teenage, I have been giving her a red rose because I love her (And the rose brings the sweetest smile on her face)

I Love You Momma!! :)